Since early ages I was an extraordinary reasonable and inquisitive child. I communicated with adults as\u00a0an equal, I lived on communication. I was fascinated by life and events taking place in it. I can say that\u00a0before I turned 20 years old I had a life of a golden kid who wanted for nothing. I was spoiled and\u00a0absolutely selfish. I received everything and even more than that without special efforts. Lifelong I had a\u00a0feeling that life was passing by. Later on I realized I had been straving for depth for all that time. I\u00a0searched for people who would share my aspirations and interests. Natural prudence and common sense\u00a0did not allow me to be a loose cannon, but I kept on looking for. I looked for life in other people and in\u00a0the world around me. I was always interested in the way and in the reason why everything works here. I\u00a0asked many questions.<\/p>\n
Then a point of no return came into my life. It is such a moment, getting over which, you will never be\u00a0the same again.<\/p>\n
At this stage I met face to face with human treachery in its different forms, loss, fatal diseases and finally\u00a0with death itself. I felt so much pain which I could hardly handle. I endured it thanks to support of close\u00a0people. I would not cope with these situations by myself. Several times for a single year my life got\u00a0completely destroyed. When you face death, you feel all that helplessness. When a close person dies on\u00a0your hands and you can do nothing it just kills you. Even the strongest people give up. That endured grief\u00a0cleans you inside and brings closer to the truth, of course, if you have enough power and conscious. I had\u00a0enough. That last straw was a car accident, and all my life flashed in front of me just like in a movie. I\u00a0realized that I needed help and that I would not get out of that deadlock by myself. I was dying of\u00a0powerlessness and misunderstanding how to cope with it, and the main thing was FOR WHAT REASON\u00a0ALL THAT HAPPENED to me, because before that everything was just perfect.<\/p>\n
By my nature I am a psychologist therefore I learned life through a prism of psychotherapy,\u00a0psychoanalysis, I learned people and various techniques and physical practices. For about a year I gained\u00a0knowledge, communicated with people, learned life through mind and body. Then I got engaged in\u00a0psychoanalysis devoting to self-discovery about a year. By that moment I understood laws of life fairy\u00a0well, I perfectly felt it, I saw signs that life wanted to tell me, I distinctly heard the inner voice. However,\u00a0there was no happiness. It was gone after the death of that dear person. I continued my search.<\/p>\n
My mind was already oversaturated, physical practices entertained me, but did not let me go into depth.\u00a0Once I read a book by Andrey Bashun Conversation with Angels then immediately I decided to take the\u00a0course Open Heart. At that moment I already heard myself well and knew that it was what I really\u00a0needed. In this respect it was much easier for me than for other guys, I can explain that by internal\u00a0maturity when there are no doubts, you feel your nature, there is knowledge and you just go there.<\/p>\n
To tell that it was difficult is to tell nothing. During one month course I had so many insights as never\u00a0before. There was such a flow of internal information and light, it just pulls the rug from under us. Speed\u00a0depends on your dedication as well as on desire backed up by actions. I was entirely involved in it.\u00a0Spiritual work became the most important one in my life. After this course I hesitated for some time\u00a0whether it was worth continuing. Actually I consciously bargained with life because I precisely knew that\u00a0it was necessary for me, but I felt what a difficult way I was starting. Despite that the DECISION was\u00a0made.<\/p>\n
I would tell that it is the most difficult way out of all possible ones. That is SPIRITUAL WORK. The\u00a0decision was made, I continued training. My PURPOSE was to AWAKE, and I wanted to make it as fast\u00a0as possible. DESIRE was comprehensive. I moved as a bulldozer without paying attention to experience,\u00a0objections of mind and various resistances. Communicating with fellow students, I understood that I did\u00a0not need more tests and pain to achieve the PURPOSE. I was ready, all I needed was just time to tighten a\u00a0body and mentality. Every time when I overcame myself, it seemed to me that I would not be able sustain\u00a0any more. However, I managed it, and walls fell over again and again. Sometimes it was so painful that it\u00a0seemed that you were dying. Actually some part of your EGO was constantly dying and falling off. But\u00a0there was HAPPINESS. At last I began to smile and even to help others. Of course, without team and my\u00a0family it would be impossible.<\/p>\n
Almost after one year of my practice there was a RETREAT in Latvia. During it I totally gave up. When\u00a0we were given individual sound harmony, I was overflown by huge JOY and overwhelming feeling of\u00a0festival. Next day, doing the program in the wood, I realized that there is NO NEED to DO ANYTHING\u00a0ANYMORE, I came HOME. Tears of happiness rolled down the face, it was the biggest event in life out\u00a0of all possible ones. It is what we came here for. Huge joy overflowed me because all suffering and pain\u00a0were left behind from now on.<\/p>\n
As if you were walking along the road for a very long time, you collected whole baggage full of different\u00a0experience, emotions and intellectual concepts. You dragged that baggage which weighed a lot, but you\u00a0kept carrying it because you saw the purpose. On the way you met many good people who shared your\u00a0way for some time. And at last you arrived. You dumped all baggage, you turned out to be at home, safe\u00a0and warm. Where it is quiet and cozy. And the most important thing is that YOU DO NOT NEED to go\u00a0ANYWHERE! Deadly fatigue got replaced by relaxation.<\/p>\n
I always sensually perceived life therefore during practice I had many various experiences and samadhi\u00a0states. Over time I just stopped paying attention to them and directed all power to moving.<\/p>\n
WHEN YOU AWAKE EVERYTHING CHANGES. It is an incredibly interesting process when\u00a0everything seems to stay the same but at the same time you perceive it in absolutely different way. You\u00a0look at your family and as though you see them for the first time. Actually it is the first time you really\u00a0perceive life the way it really is. Every instant is absolutely fine and filled. At the beginning it was very\u00a0difficult because of such saturation. It took several months for me to adapt to absolutely NEW\u00a0PERCEPTION of LIFE. Emotions overflowed, DELIGHT AND HAPPINESS because YOU exist,\u00a0seemed to tear you apart from inside. And all people around you felt it, they also were changing.<\/p>\n
What did awakening give me? FREEDOM, purity of perception of the world, REST and absolute\u00a0HAPPINESS not depending on external conditions. That is the best that you can make for the family and\u00a0the world in general. To awake and help others to make it. As when you are happy and so filled, it is\u00a0necessary to share it.<\/p>\n
However, after AWAKENING the WAY does not come to an end. Absolutely not, it JUST BEGINS.\u00a0Because further processes proceed absolutely differently, on another level. Everything happens easily,\u00a0internal work becomes more saphisticated. You do not force yourself continuously anymore and do it\u00a0easily and naturally.<\/p>\n
Awakening is very a NATURAL PROCESS to which each of us will come. The question is how fast and\u00a0ainfully it will be. Because being in a team, in practice, it is possible to make it much easier and quicker\u00a0with the help of awareness and gratitude.<\/p>\n
Not many people are ready for INTERNAL WORK. It is the WAY FOR STRONG AND MATURE\u00a0PEOPLE! The way during which you find absolute FREEDOM. You BEGIN to LIVE full and happy life.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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