Not so long ago my life used to be an anxious waiting for something that supposed to turn my life upside\u00a0down but it didn’t happen. I was completely missing joy of life. All I had was just disappointment that\u00a0every single day was just one another one. Constant suffering and worries affected my health and I had to\u00a0start to look for solution. That’s how I heard about Givin school.<\/p>\n
The thing that guys and Genadiy discussed in the videos appealed for me. I clearly realized that it was\u00a0exactly what I always needed. That was exactly what I was looking for since childhood in various books,\u00a0talking to people and playing sports.<\/p>\n
Changes could be already noticed during my first retreat in November. Before that I used to have some\u00a0problems with my nerve system. There were many fears and body blocks. During the retreat convulsions\u00a0and panic attacks left at once. In general my state became stable, I felt peace and calm.<\/p>\n
I was moving to another country. That was not an easy step. But I was determined. There was a strong\u00a0desire to change myself and my life to become internally cleaner, to live for real, so all the difficulties\u00a0could be solved. That was an incredible internal growth! It felt like my past life was in the distant past.<\/p>\n
I went to the June retreat to open my heart and to become free from my own ideas about myself and life in\u00a0general. A month before the retreat I noticed that my perception of life already started to change. I began\u00a0to see things around me, houses and nature a bit differently. As if all of them turned into very interesting\u00a0and unusual toys.<\/p>\n
At the retreat my new vision began to unfold even more. I perceived myself as a kind of presence,\u00a0stillness and peace. Whatever was going on, I was this peace. I wanted to share this state that was within\u00a0me with others all the time.<\/p>\n
On the last day of the retreat my perception changed even more. An internal observer suddenly appeared.\u00a0He is always present and he is watching everything that happens by itself. Nature, people, objects became\u00a0voluminous and brighter. It was very unusual. All my actions started to be effective and clear without\u00a0endless thinking. If I do anything then I am completely present in this action. Now there is more clarity\u00a0and ease. I am not involved in any thoughts as I was before. They come and go as a background.\u00a0Sometimes there is a complete silence inside me. Whatever’s going on, I’m just here.<\/p>\n
When I began to share my experience with the guys, I felt that it filled me heat in my breast. I finally\u00a0understood the saying When we share the best that we have we are being filled.\u00a0Now after the retreat the perception of the world continues to go deeper. I want to spend more time with\u00a0people, to share warmth and to embrace them. I got a desire to help people and help them to know their\u00a0real selves.<\/p>\n
To live the way it was before is impossible and actually that was not life at all! The real life has just\u00a0begun!<\/p>\n
I think this experience is not my merit…<\/p>\n
A huge thanks to Genadiy and all the guys!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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